Category: Blog
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Not getting brave. I am Brave.
For me, bravery isn’t something you’re born with or something that’s inherently a part of who you are- it’s a learned skill. The title of this post might seem contradictory: if I believe that bravery is a learned skill, then wouldn’t “getting brave” be an accurate depiction? Kind of, but “getting brave” implies that I…
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On the Brightside (of Reality)
I tend to look for the best in people, situations, and experiences. I am often the person in the room advocating or giving the benefit of the doubt to someone everyone else agrees doesn’t deserve it. I tend to appreciate the little things in experiences or in otherwise dire circumstances. None of this means I…
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Triggers and Tripwires
As I sit down to write this, my heart feels heavy, my hands trembling slightly on the keyboard. My thoughts are going 1,000 miles per minute but my body still feels like it’s lagging. How is that even possible? For those who haven’t experienced it, a trigger might seem like a simple word or image…
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Whispers of Resilience: Navigating Life with Hashimotos Thyroiditis
You know, it’s funny how illness has a way of sneaking up on you when you least expect it. Lately, I’ve found myself spending more time than usual binge-watching movies and TV shows. Now, for most people, that might sound like a dream come true. But for me, and those who know me best, it’s…
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Awareness
People know what happened to me. This was my biggest fear when I was younger and now… people know. If you’ve been reading my blog for a while, you know, too: I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. As a child, I tried consciously and desperately to hide what I was going through. When…
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Safety: in numbers, experience, and practice
My therapist asks me how my coworkers would describe me and adds: do they treat you like you’re a child? A pause for a few seconds to think… I ask myself how I think my coworkers would describe me. Outloud I say: “I think they would describe me as smart and… kind”. Now that I…
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Frozen
Some of you may have heard of the fight, flight or freeze response to danger. The terms fight or flight were described by WB Cannon in the 1920s to describe a physiological reaction to the perception of danger. Later, in 2002, Barlow expanded upon this theory by talking about another response that sometimes happens: the…
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Attempted assault. Again.
I am currently in Indianapolis- traveling to go see the cast of critical role, live at Gen Con. I have been looking forward to this trip for months. For one, I get to see these amazing voice actors live- so pumped. But in addition, I get to see my best friend, who I don’t get…
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No Contact.
I’ve been scared to post on my blog recently. *takes deep breath* It feels good to put words to my absence from my blog. My biological dad (BD) gets out of Jail tomorrow. My BD was NOT the person who sexually abused me. My BD had a mental breakdown after finding out I had been…
Finding Taylor 